role A and role B

i called chloe tonite and talked abt for 2 hours. sometimes i feel very pity abt ourselves, coz the topic around our talk is all abt gossip in high school. I think: maybe Yan will never talk about this on her phone now... but chloe and i are different coz we have come to a new nation and have our brand new start. the same thing is that we cannot give up our pasts.. coz they are so memorable.

juz talk back to what i really want to say=]

there is always a confusion around a question. i m sure it exists amongst most of girls: why there aren't anyone who wants to chase us!!! also, there are no good-quality guys around us. chloe even said: i have never seen a good-quality guy in my life.

i agree.

and we also discuss why there are some girls who are truly popular amongst guys though, they are not 'that' pretty.

we divide role A and role B inside girls.

chloe and i have found we have the same situation when we face boys: we will pretend that we have no ambitious, not agressive. We study well juz because we want high marks, juz because emulous as little children. We have no goal for our lives. We are simple, as simple as little kids. We are naive, as naive as little pussy. This, we call this Role B.

When we face guys, we will switch our character into Role B, almost automatically.

however, when we are with girls, we become another kind of persons. We are mature. We understand everything. We are so sophisticated that we are not like 19 years old. We know the truth of this dark society. We are almost the soul leaders amongst 19-year-old girls. We are complicated, and also sensitive and sentimental. This is Role A.

Some girls, we know some like milk, just have Role B. They are simple and naive in front of both guys and girls. However, honestly, I think they know everything in their minds. They are barely good at pretending. I like milk, sometimes, honestly. Sometimes i think she is too fake. SOmetimes i juz want to look after her, coz she desires it so much, as a little child.

Some girls juz have Role A. They are mature, from inside to outside. They are true and straightforward. Their characters are so distinct that girls like them very much. However, most of them are not as popular as the former type amongst guys. They appear independent thus guys view them as superwomen, rather than girl friends. HOwever, there are also special cases, like Monica. She is straightforward and true. The boys around her thought she was easily accessible because of her cheerful personality. Most of them were attracted by this.

Most girls, in my opinion, have Role A and Role B. Also, most girls, in my opinion, are able to switch them automatically, and unconciously.

The one who have only Role A and Role B, the situation of them are very extreme---they are most popular amongst guys, or, they are always neglected by males.

Just best wishes, for all girls---all of us can meet the one (a good-quality guy) who really understands and appreciates us.